Aileen // 2022
Mother to Athena & Expecting.
You're preparing for two-under-two. How did you feel when you first found out you were pregnant again?
I was overwhelmed, anxious and honestly experienced some negative feelings. I know having children is such a blessing, but at the moment, I was scared. I always said that I wanted a few years between having children, but finding out I was pregnant not even a year after giving birth gave me so much anxiety. So many thoughts ran through my head—from being scared of my first daughter having a lack of attention to also having a fear of not finding myself again, because it’s just one child after the other.
I was and slightly am still afraid of the thought of having one child feel more tended to than the other. I don’t want my first to be sad when the second comes around because I know it’ll be really different for her. I think I’ve come to terms with the thought of having "mother" be my main role—and I’ve learned that it’s a blessing. My situation is much different now, so by the time my second daughter is born I think I will already be acclimated and much more prepared than the first time— allowing me to have time to figure myself out before and while also having two children. I do think often about the stress of two kids, but I know that even with stress there is always a reward and that reward is my babies. So overall I'm both excited and anxious, but in a good way.